Lick that Knife! Say that thing! Be That B*tch!

There was a time when I dropped out of law school, went on a spontaneous US trip along the West Coast and changed my instagram handle to “anothertravelbitch”.

That was fun! That was me.

There was a time when I discovered spirituality and personal development just as covid was starting, wore one and the same pair of leggings every day, as all my stuff was locked in China, became all love and light and changed that aggressive reactive energy (or so I thought anyway) instagram handle to "eclaired", a spiel on the French for illuminated/enlightened.

That was so enlightened?! That was also me.

I've missed the travel bitch. She had personality. She was expressed.

I’m tired of vanilla. Tired of us trying to be good girls/boys, to fit in, to do all the right things, choose the right career path, not lick the knife, not dress “too much” or too little (and the last time I checked, these seemed to be the same thing..?) ...

Tired of people so "well-behaved" that they're not even alive. You’ll never be good enough for some people, no matter how much of a good girl/boy you are, so you might as well just strop trying and just be your amazing self.

After 3.5 years of working hard on embodying love and light, I realized that while I was so focused on the light, I didn’t embody ME enough. My essence. My little divine spark.

Everybody can be light. Everyone IS light.

But who are YOU, that total miracle of a unique strand of DNA which will never repeat itself?

Don’t get me wrong — I am still all love and light. I love love and light. I surround myself by people who are love and life. But the people I surround myself are also expressed, uniquely themselves, have distinct personalities, and a spine.

I find that you can create space for so much more light if you embrace the darkness too. Dig it out from wherever you’ve buried it for no one to find. Bring it to the surface. Shed some light on it. Let’s see it! Let’s have it melt away under the sunlight! 

LIFE IS day and night. Light and dark. Yin and yang. Life is about contrast.

So be it all. If you’re only about love and light — then you’re bullshi**ing everyone. Especially yourself. And life goes past you.

So go on. Be that bitch. Wear that dress. Take it off. Lick that knife. Use that word.

And thus the travel bitch was back.

Back in America.

Funny. Maybe America just brings out the best of me? You know, the most me out of me.

All 📸 by Donna Goldberg